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1. Everybody Doesn’t Have To Love Me

Not everybody has to love me or even like me. I don’t necessarily like everybody I know, so why should everybody else like me? I enjoy being liked and being loved, but if somebody doesn’t like me, I will still be okay and still feel like I am an okay person. I cannot make somebody like me, anymore than someone can get me to like them. I don’t need approval all the time. If someone does not approve me, I will still be okay.

2. It Is Okay To Make Mistake

Making mistake is something we all do, and I am still a fine and worthwhile person when I make them. There is no reason for me to get upset when I make a mistake. I am trying, and if I make a mistake, I am going to continue trying. I can handle making a mistake. It is okay for others to make mistakes, too. I will accept mistakes in myself and also mistakes that others make.

3. Other People Are Okay And I Am Okay

People who do things I don’t like are not necessarily bad people. They should not necessarily be punished just because I don’t like what they do or did. There is no reason why other people should be the way I want them to be, and there is no reason why I should be the way somebody else want me to be. People will be whatever they want to be, and I will be whatever I want to be. I cannot control other people or change them. They are who they are; we all deserve basic respect.

4. I Don’t Have To Control Things

I will survive if things are different than what I want them to be. I can accept things the way they are, accept people the way they are, and accept myself the way I am. There is no reason to get upset if I cant change things to fit my idea of how they ought to be. There is no reason why I should have to like everything. Even if I don’t like it, I can live with it.

5. I Am Responsible For My Day

I am responsible for how I feel and what I do. Nobody can make me feel anything. If I have a rotten day, I am the one who allowed it to be that way. If a have agreat day, I am the one who deserves credit for being positive. It is not the responsibility of other people to change so that I can feel better. I am the one who is in charge of my life.

6. I Can Handle It When Things Go Wrong

I don’t need to watch out for things to go wrong. Things usually go just fine, and when they don’t, I can handle it. I don’t have to waste my energy worrying. The sky won’t fall in; things will be okay.

7. It Is Important To Try

I can. Even though I may be faced with difficult tasks, it is better to try than to avoid them. Avoiding a task does not give me any opportunities for success or joy, but trying does. Things worth having are worth the effort. I might not be able to do everything, but I can do something.

8. I Am Capable

I don’t need someone to take care of my problems. I am capable. I can take care of myself. I can make decisions for myself. I can think for myself. I don’t have to depend on somebody else to take care of me.

9. I Can Change

I don’t have to be a certain way because of what has happened in the past. Every day is a new day. It’s silly to think I can’t help being the way I am. Of course I can. I can change.

10. Other People Are Capable

I can’t solve other people’s problem for them. I don’t have to take on other people’s problem as if they were my own. I don’t need to change other people or fix up their lives. They are capable and can take care of themselves, and can solve their own problems. I can care and be of some help, but I can’t do everything for them.

11. I Can Be Flexible

There is more than one way to do something. More than one person has had good ideas that will work. There is no one and only “best” way. Everybody has ideas that are worthwhile. Some may make more sense to me than others, but everyone’s ideas are worthwhile, and everyone has something worthwhile to contribute.

*perenungan menghadapi hari baru dalam tahun baru bersama azam yang baru bercambah dan akan mekar menyelusuri denai dan lebuh raya kehidupan.

**adapted from chicken soup for teenage soul

berjumpa semula selepas hampir empat tahun, sungguh aku sangat happy. dan tadi

tetiba aku rasa nak dengar lagu ‘graduation’. lagu kami masa nak berpisah lepas

habis matrik, lirik lagu tu kami tulis di belakang album kelas -4hayat9- dan aku

dengar lagu tu..

bila tiba lirik..

..So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money

When we look back now, will our jokes still be funny?..

..aku senyum sendiri, dan jawapan aku untuk pertanyaan tu, "YES"!

memang semua masih takde big job, semua masih takde big money.. ramai yang final

year, juz beberapa yang dah kerja, tapi semua masih tak berubah. semua masih

sama cam dulu. walaupun tak dapat jumpa semua, cukuplah yang ada untuk mengubat

kerinduan tu..

to all of u guys, thanks sebab create memori manis untuk aku masa kt KMNS dulu

and the memories remain till now..

As we go on, we remember

All the times we had together

And as our lives change, come whatever

We will still be, friends forever

bul, aque, fizzie, ai sin, yan, nik, nizan, saeh, syakir, lina

i miss u all guysss..

semalam, lepas makan tengah hari, hp berbunyi. mesej dari seorang kawan.

lost!

semalam, lepas makan tengah hari, lepas dapat mesej dari seorang kawan, dapat lagi mesej dari seorang kawan lain.

lost!

semalam, lepas makan tengah hari, lepas dapat mesej dari dua orang kawan, dapat call dari seorang kawan yang lain.

lost!

dan pagi tadi, lepas breakfast, terjumpa la satu blog tu, dan entrynya, What To Do When You Feel ‘Lost’.. authornya, en rizal (dan aku pernah hadiri satu talk dia (beliau) dulu masa seminar LI masa 2nd year, Get That Job - menarik!)

lepas baca tu aku akui kata-kata en rizal,"One of the first things you would do is be grateful that you are still alive! You’d probably have some cuts and bruises, maybe even something broken here and there, but you are alive ;)"

walaupun aku patah hati, kecewa, berduka, atau pun LOST!, sekurang-kurangnya aku masih hidup dan aku masih ada peluang, dan masih ada peluang untuk menentukan siapa aku suatu hari nanti.

being ‘lost’ is your choice!

kembali semula ke 2nd setelah lima hari tinggalkan bilik.

kembali dengan perasaan yang tidak tahu aku nak gambarkan.

kembali dengan perasaan bersalah.

kembali dengan perasaan sedih.

kembali dengan perasaan pedih.

kembali dengan perasaan gembira.

kembali dengan perasaan bercampur baur.

kembali dengan satu tujuan - pergi training Vicon Nexus.
dua sebenarnya - submit MEC to dr azuan.
mungkin jugak tiga - ?
atau empat - ?

tapi yang sebetulnya aku kembali dengan satu pertanyaan - aku ni orang yang
terlalu pentingkan diri ke?

meletakkan diri pada tempat orang lain?
atau meletakkan orang pada tempat kita?
atau pun tak perlu memikirkan kedua-duanya.
hidupmu adalah hidupmu
dan hidupku, aku tentukan.

tapi

tak selalunya betul.

kita ada sebab kita dilahirkan ibu kita.
kita hidup sampai ke hari ni sebab kita dibesarkan oleh seseorang, tidak kiralah
ibu atau bapa atau sesiapa saja.
kita boleh bercakap sebab ada seseorang yang mengajar kita.
kita sampai ke tempat kita sekarang sebab beribu atau berjuta yang lain, yang
langsung atau tidak langsung membantu kita ke tahap ini.

jadi,
mana mungkin kita katakan

hidupmu, hidupmu
hidupku, hidupku
(baca dalam dua nada berbeza walaupun perkataan yang sama)

sebabnya,
kamu memerlukan aku
aku memerlukan kamu

dan kita saling memerlukan

jadi
nak tak nak
dalam kebanyakan masa
walaupun bukan sepenuh masa

kita perlu meletakkan diri kita
dalam kepentingan orang lain

sebab
hidupmu sebahagian urusanku
hidupku juga sebahagian urusanmu

tapi

kembali kepada pertanyaan
aku ni orang yang mementingkan diri sendiri ke?

sejujurnya
aku masih keliru

yang aku tahu: aku dah banyak berkorban untuk kepentingan orang
yang aku tak tahu: orang lebih banyak berkorban untuk kepentingan aku

yang aku tahu: orang dah banyak menyusahkan aku
yang aku tak tahu: aku lagi banyak susahkan hidup orang

yang aku tahu: aku sedih bila orang abaikan perasaan aku
yang aku tak tahu: orang lagi sedih bila aku tak ambil tahu perasaan diorang

yang aku tahu: aku menangis bila terluka
yang aku tak tahu: orang dah puas menangis sebab aku lukakan mereka

yang aku tahu: tulis entry ni
yang aku tak tahu: nak buat apa lagi…

aku tahu masih banyak yang aku tak tahu…